Sunday, April 25, 2010

God is an idea

When has something troubled you so much, you lose track of almost everything? Like as if you were going through every day much like a robot or a zombie, where there is no self-control on your actions. Your responses to stimuli are either non-lifelike or too emotional, in a vague sense of the word.

Philosophy is not something easily digested or understood. That is because of it's abstract nature, that sounds more like a politician's speech. Neither here nor there. That is its true nature, and hence cannot conform to scientific thought.Our current rules of science are so rigid that we lose sight of it's original intention, and are bent on trying to explain what we see and observe, using those rules. No matter how hard we try, we will ultimately fail.

The same idea can be applied to social aspects as well, and to more sensitive topics like religion and belief.

If we look deeper into religion and its books from where we learn about it, a huge part of them go into explaining thoughts and ideas , labelled "good" and "bad", depending on situations and justifications.

As with any idea, as long as it remains an idea, it stays pure and ready to be accepted by all. But when an idea is associated with say, a person or an event, it loses its purity and loses its power and purpose. Once this is done, nothing can be done,unless the memory of that association is lost forever.

Unfortunately, as is the case in humans, where our methods of education, involve the use of examples, and situations, we will never escape from the association of ideas with people or other beings. It is said that "experience is the best teacher". I believe that experience is the only teacher. Our education system is just a great leveller, standing in side to side to our society, to enforce a sense of control and hierarchy. At each step , we are forced to learn who is in control and who is not. Only our experiences allow us to break free, and to trick the system.

And so too with religion, we are told that there are rules to be followed because it is said by someone or written somewhere. End of discussion. The chance to question is lost, and thus the chance to learn/change/improve/understand is lost. We say that we are an intelligent society, but we lose sight of the fact that controlling change is something that has failed time and again and again. We fail to see that change is inevitable, and rules that existed before will be broken, again and again. What was bad, is good, and what was good, is bad. All by-products of the rules that we have thought up, thinking that they are for the greater good.

These are thoughts, that lead to an idea that says that humans were designed to fail, to sacrifice and to lose. So how is that we have examples of humans prevailing, and how is it that humans have managed to survive? I believe that this could be where our understanding of God or some universal force/energy begins.

Somehow, there is a kind of energy which all living beings have the capacity to tap into. I believe , that we as humans, have developed different methods to tap into this energy.Meditation, prayer, yoga, pranic breathing, etc, etc..

This is a very controversial topic, I know, but I believe, this is the closest we can get to understanding and solving so many things we have taken for granted. All of us say that everything is under the control of some higher power or the "guy on top". I believe that as humans we have a primal tendency to look up to something, and be in awe of something we cannot understand/explain, and give in to such experiences.

I believe that we, due to our learning disability, continue to associate this "higher power" with something we can relate to, thus bringing it down to our size. And again, we will fail to truly understand.

I also believe that there are "pockets" of this energy in different parts of the universe, where beings who are "tuned" to this energy, either by birth or training, can experience it in its true form. All beings are capable in a very minor way to access this energy by way of "feeling".

That's all for now, I will put up some more thoughts as soon as I can collate them in my head.

Thanks for reading

Arun

Saturday, March 07, 2009

De-concentration

Why is there a compulsion to write? Why the need to put down thoughts in some retrievable form? Why the difficulty to recollect some thoughts which made sense only a few days ago?

These are the questions I ask myself when I re-opened my blog editor today. Thinking out loud, literally, I believe this stems from the fact, that I have been letting myself or my mind to free-roam. I might be doing a perfectly normal or mundane task, but on a different tangent of thought with no relation to the task at hand.

Problem with concentration? Well, maybe.

But I have got so used to this method of operation, that when I actually sit down to apply my mind on some task, I find it exruciatingly difficult.

For example, I was given a task of solving a technical problem a few weeks ago. And I sat down to get it out of the way. But no matter how long I tried and how hard I looked for the answer, I couldn't pinpoint the fault. After a long day of trying out all possibilities, I had almost given up. I left the problem unsolved and headed for home. I was driving home, and after sometime I got lost in my thoughts, which were mostly concentrated on the problem obviously, and within a few minutes, it hit me! I was approaching the problem the wrong way. Which was why no matter how I looked at it, I couldn't find the fault.

Unfortunately, I was already far away from the office, or I would have turned back to give the issue one more shot.

I was wondering why this answer did not occur to me in the office. I had spent a whole day trying to solve it, when not doing anything else. But it took me only a few minutes, when I was driving home.

If this was a one-off case, I would have just labeled it as unprofessionalism on my part. But this thing happened a few times, actually a lot of times that calling it coincidence started becoming ridiculous.

And it always happened mostly while driving to or from home, and of course some other times, when I was at a shopping mall generally browsing. If I started to think about other issues, at any of these times, I would find myself having a better point of view on those issues.

Now this started getting irritating, when I actually got down to solve the issues. Because, I couldn't remember what it was that I was thinking of, when I thought I had solved the problem!:)

So how do I get around this? Well, I don't know for sure yet. But I think it involved me writing down or talking to someone what solution I came up with. Then I would have a better chance of recollecting the answer.


Now all this is impractical, when you are driving home alone. At that time, you cant (or are not allowed to) do these things. :)

No, this is not going to work. I believe that the most viable solution would be to approach a problem with a better frame of mind. If you can't make head or tail of the situation, step back. Walk about the place, not necessarily thinking about the problem. Call someone, check your email, something to get yourself out of the groove. Go and have some beverage, to reset yourself physically. Then, once you've had your break, get back to the situation, and if you're lucky, you might just find yourself looking at the answer.

I'm not saying this is a sure-shot solution, but atleast it gives you a better chance.

Monday, April 07, 2008

Time for a change

I was getting bored with the look of the page, it looks weirder now, but atleast it's different!

Things are getting much more complicated now. It seemed much better when we were kids, when we were able to get stuck in our own world, without much interference.

As a good friend of mine always reminds me, we are getting older, and soon, we will have responsibilities which we cannot shirk from. I keep wondering when, but it kind of seems like soon enough..

There are some particular moments, when you feel as if you were at crossroads with something or someone, with no particular help for direction. Well, there is help, its just a choice whether to accept it or not. In the end, whatever happens, will be the direct result of that decision. So the fear of losing or doing wrong, makes us step back and think, Should I or Should I not? or as the famous saying goes, "To be or not to be".

We have these moments time and time again, but every time its different, because each and every time, you are a different person, and the reasoning that you use each and every time, is very different.

So many questions, very few answers. The symptoms of a very, VERY troubled mind. I have tried to escape from the very thought of thinking. To be in a different state, so as to lose the ability to think, God only knows what all I've tried. But with every gift, so comes the curse. With every power, so comes the responsibility.

I have met many people from different walks of life, and each and every one of them has a different way of thinking. The saying that no two people are the same, is in my opinion, very true. Of course, we can always find similarities. It is in our nature to do so. But the truth is, everybody is gifted, in one way or another, it just takes a little bit of time, and a whole lot of understanding, to realise those gifts. It is the vitality of a person, of one's soul, that amazes me. When you interact with a person, for a while, if you're lucky, you will see that spark of life, of some kind of energy burst.

What is saddening is that, the way of life is only to suppress that spark and not nurture it. We're insulted, abused, hit, beaten like animals, only to inflict the same to those we come across, all this just to abide, conform to some so-called society. But all one needs is that one chance, and the right kind of encouragement, of course.

Some times, I feel I think too much, Sometimes I feel I dont. Sometimes, I feel I can change something, Sometimes, I feel I can make a difference . I have taken it as challenge, to find something, invent something, one thing that will change everyone's life for the better. If I can do ONE thing, that can bring a smile to every person's face, I will have considered my life's mission complete. What is that one thing? Don't worry I haven't found it, yet. But I will, someday.. A fool's errand? I dont think so. Better to go down fighting, I feel.

Enough of boredom for now, More thoughts next post. See you then..

Monday, August 06, 2007

Ee desertum kadannu

Talk about being jobless! Just because you own a 4-wheel drive doesn't mean you know how to drive one, properly that is. Well, here goes one of the many mistakes that I've committed down the line. Sometimes, it's just better to sit at home and #$@#$.... you know what i mean..

I came back home from work in the afternoon when a work call came up and I had to go to Seef Mall to get the job done. It wasn't much really. Nothing got done, so i had nothing to do. heheh.. as usual..
So I checked the time, it was around 5pm. The time around which Soney, a very good friend of mine, gets off work. He wanted to check out the prices of some portable music players. SO.. we went around Manama to check the prices. All the while , I was thinking why don't we go for a drive somewhere. It sounded like fun so we called the few other people who would be interested in hanging out, namely Rajesh and Shilpa, two other very good friends of mine. They were interested. So we picked up both of them and set out. No direction really, but the basic bearing was south. We were on the usual route that led to the Tree of Life. So we decided why not make that our destination, and we all agreed. Big Mistake.. My fault really. By the time we reached there, I was already in a good mood. So I decided to test my vehicle. It's a 2002 model Hyundai Galloper. Not bad but not good enough. heheh. So we're off-road. Soney and Shilpa get out. It's just Rajesh and me in the car. Looks ok so far. Take the car for a few sharp turns in the sand, up a few dunes, and down some more. So far so good. In between, all this I try to engage 4WD. No use. Doesn't work. Must be stuck or something. Now I get even more stupid. I take even more turns and end up in some very loose sand. Heheh.. Now starts the real drama.. I put the vehicle in drive, and accelerate. I hear only the sound of sand flying away. The car doesn't move an inch. Great!. Reverse gear time!. More sand flying away. Forward! Reverse! Forward! Reverse! Nothing helps. We just keep throwing out more sand. All this while, Rajesh is holding on to the dashboard, thinking," Shit! What the hell have we got into now?" And finally,I turn around and look at his face and say,"Dude, I think we're stuck!" and he's like, "Fuck! man!". I'm like," Yeah, man".Also the 4wd doesn't work, so shitto dot com man. SO.. I get out and start pushing the car.. Me and my weird ideas.All the while, asking Rajesh to shift the gears back and forth. So I call Soney over and he starts to help me, before which, I think what must have been going on his mind, was the thought " Why me?".. Because, I'm sure I heard Soney swear some sort of profanity when we were practically eating sand that was being thrown out from under the wheels. We do some more reverse gear driving, all the while listening to the transmission screeching, trying to balance the load and the drive. My heart sank while thinking about the cost of changing the transmission and automatic gearbox.

SO.. After a few push-pull scenarios and with Rajesh directing the driving, we managed to pull the car out of the loose sand in reverse gear. And Soney got in and took it a far away spot, just to make sure everything's ok .heheh..

We take the car out a little more back to the highway and I started to get a very weird smell. I got out of the car and see animal droppings all along which kind of got mixed with the real smell, which I'll be telling you about soon. So we got confused as to what the real smell also. To add to the confusion with smell, there was a gas conversion plant just close to where we had stopped the car. So with accusations flying everywhere, as to where the smell had originated from, we got back into the car and started to head home. After I dropped the others at Rajesh's office, they got into Rajesh's car and headed home. I,too, was on my way home, when I stopped at a cafeteria to get a bite. When I got out of the car, I heard a hissing sound from under the bonnet. I thought the car was doomed. So I opened the bonnet and the sound got louder. Due to the previous history of over heating, I checked the radiator and overflow tank, for tell-tale signs of steam or boiling water. Nothing.. Shit! Then I resigned to the fact that my transmission has got really screwed, and that it was heating up really bad. And thats what the smell was really about. The burnt acrid smell of a really heated up gearbox. It's a wonder that it didn't break down. I took the car out for a small drive and confirmed the fact that the sound was really coming from the gearbox. Because you could feel the heat from inside the car by touching the area under the gear lever. Oh man! Now I'm in trouble. But there still is one thing, which I cannot understand. Even with all this, there is no leak from anywhere. Anyway, the vehicle is going back to it's workshop, for changing of the gear oil and transmission oil. Hope it lasts for that journey. And as a personal note to Soney, Rajesh and Shilpa, I deeply apologize for any trouble that you faced. I was just bored out of my brains and wanted to have some fun. My only intention was for everyone to have their fun. If I caused you guys, to have a bad experience, I'm really really sorry.
Maybe I'll think of a better idea next time.

Monday, July 30, 2007

Pathetic attempt at a blog.

Looking at my previous posts, those that were posted on the fly and as a minor attempt at learning how to post a blog, I feel that I've learned nothing as of yet, and am still a beginner at something I should have mastered a long time ago.

While travelling, I get lost in my thoughts, and i always feel that I should have these thoughts penned down somewhere. But at that time, you neither have the pen, nor the paper to make it possible. Now with the advances in technology, you find that you can post blogs directly from your mobile or PDA ,with no hassles. And still it is difficult for some to do so.

So the question is, does the difficulty arise due to the sheer complexity of this technology or due to the sheer laziness of these people? I would like to use myself as an example. As a modest member of the so-called IT society, I would find it easy to make it possible to pen your thoughts as I'm always carrying around a mobile phone or any kind of writing instrument. In my case, it's just the thought that makes it sound good. But,when I try to do it , I find myself blank for words.

So why is it so difficult to put your thoughts into writing? Is this what the sages called creativity? The ability to create something valuable out of nothing. If you can repeat the words in your head, you should be able to put down those words on paper, shouldn't you? The more I thought about this, I found out that the words in our head are also associated with pictures, memories, feelings and other things that are stored in our mind. So even when you put down the words, you are not able to put the other things associated with them into writing, to make the reader FEEL what you are trying to tell him.

Communication, is a weird concept. Be it in any field. From electronics to the visual media. How to enable two devices to "talk" to each other. To share information.
When we talk to a person face to face, we are able to show facial actions, eye movements to give stress to certain words to enhance the meaning of the conversation.
The same kind of communication would be difficult to perform over the telephone, but still enhancements can be provided by way of tone of speech, or interjection of various sounds to alter the method of speech.
and I guess the most disabled kind of communication is that of the "instant messaging" kind. Where you can not be absolutely sure as to who you are talking to, and you can never be sure as to what exactly the conversation intends to tell you..It all relies on intricate guesswork and past experience with the person who you are conversing with.

But even with all these disadvantages, the most obvious point is always ignored. Due to these advancements, we are ABLE to communicate. It is made possible. The global village, it is called. Where distance is considered negligible, and the people might as well be next door or in the next country.

I had the good luck to be able to travel to India this year during the rainy season. I had visited a few places, mainly with the intention of meeting up with people I had studied with or those who I grew up with.

It is a good feeling to know that you are in someone's thoughts somewhere. Now they are all grown up with jobs, responsibilities. These were the same people, you used to play soccer or cricket with, or watch movies together. It is pleasing and saddening thought. One that they have moved on with their life, as is the true purpose of life - change. Two, the good memories will always be that, memories. Probably someday, we will be store these memories in the actual form, along with the feelings which we had at the time and not just in the form of video, audio and photo.

Whew! Well atleast it's a start, maybe I'll be able to put down something more the next time.

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